Autism, dogs, family, frustrations, Mental Health, nature, pets, Photography

Breathe In, Breathe Out… & Repeat…

Yesterday took a lot out of me. I had to retreat a bit from family and ended up on the floor in a warm sunny spot trying to regroup and center myself. There's something about the floor that appeals to me more than furniture when I feel overwhelmed. Being down on the ground is comforting… Continue reading Breathe In, Breathe Out… & Repeat…

Autism, Diamond Painting, Diary, dogs, health, hiking, I love my dog, nature, pets, Photography

A Little Bit Of Everything Today…

It's been great. The weather has been phenomenal the last two days and I've felt completely normal. It's so crazy what a little sun and heat can do. We've had 17-18C which is the highest it's been this year with nothing but clear blue skies and pure sun, which means that I can push the… Continue reading A Little Bit Of Everything Today…

Autism, depression, drama, family, frustrations, Mental Health

Yesterday, I Ended Up In a Confrontation With My Family And It Wasn’t Pretty…

Oh, what a way to start a new month. The last 24 hours have been bad. I am exhausted mentally and I feel like going into complete recluse mode and ignoring everything. Yesterday, I called a family meeting and it was a mistake that I wish I could take back. In all honesty, it wasn't… Continue reading Yesterday, I Ended Up In a Confrontation With My Family And It Wasn’t Pretty…

Autism, depression, Diary, hiking, life, Mental Health, nature, Photography

A Cloudy Sunset By The Bay of Waves After a Week of Hell & Avoidance…

Not gonna lie. The last 8 days or so have just been bad. I had a painful period that lasted 7 days (which is longer than usual, even for me... the record is 9 days but most of the time it settles on 5-6) followed by a migraine from hell. I pretty much haven't left… Continue reading A Cloudy Sunset By The Bay of Waves After a Week of Hell & Avoidance…

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The Musical Journey of Paris Jackson…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLTPL9FeDek&list=PL6QemhExcKmXkjwC82nxFjFozBeRQ03Vv&index=1 Holy hell. Can we talk about how amazing Paris Jackson's first solo album is? I like every single song on "Wilted." I'm so glad she chose the indie-folk/alt rock genre instead of being a pop artist like her dad. It's dark, haunting, and beautiful. Just like her. You know what it kinda reminds me of?… Continue reading The Musical Journey of Paris Jackson…

animals, Autism, Creativity, Diamond Painting, Diary, dogs, fun, Hobbies, pets

Dedicated to Diamond Painting…

I am so happy. My new diamond painting arrived yesterday and once again, it's one of Spooky. I've already finished the first one I had made from one of his pictures. But more on that later. What is diamond painting, you may ask? Oh, just one of the best hobbies you can have on this… Continue reading Dedicated to Diamond Painting…

acceptance, Autism, Brain Damage, Diary, disability, health, life, Mental Health, Random Thoughts

Filling The Hours…

Sometimes it's hard filling the hours when you don't work. Granted, I have many years of experience with it but sometimes I still catch myself staring into the wall. "Why do you not work?" You may ask. It's a complicated matter. To be honest... I was granted a life-long disabilty pension about a decade ago… Continue reading Filling The Hours…

Autism, Diary, dogs, frustrations, I love my dog, life, pets

The Struggles of Life…

I've been very negative lately; unable to use my usual cheerful outlook on life. I really feel like it's all uphill and I am dragging this huge weight behind me. I hate it. So much. Everything right now is just difficult. Getting out of bed is difficult, taking a shower is difficult, cooking is difficult… Continue reading The Struggles of Life…

Autism, frustrations, life, Random Thoughts, This is how I feel, writing

The Lie We Live…

I came across a video today called β€œThe Lie We Live” and it struck a chord with me. It is so powerful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNVZ0ZPfE8s This is how I feel about the world most days. Unlike the creator of this video, I did actually live in a world without computers, I'm from 1983, the first traditional IBM… Continue reading The Lie We Live…